OCT 5th Rant

sometimes I feel intense without a recent interaction with something supernatural. sometimes my emptiness fills with me everything i need to continue. Sometime I sit back and survey the world and feel the power that God gives to us small earthly people. sometimes i remember that the world doesnt revolve around me, sometime i step outside of myself long enough to know that my pain is nothing compared to the persecutions that some people encounter. The world i am expected to thrive, grow and succeed in is greatly flawed. racism, sexism, classism, full of greed. but there are pockets. pockets of love and refuge. so that we as humans can push through this flawed society believing that we have a chance. its seems as though death and destruction and greed are winning that it triumphs over good and what is pure. But the blessed thing is I know that Christ is the everything and the only that can and will set this place straight and restore what is good. He will reclaim his throne. We always end state the hope that christ gives us because though we as humans still get anxious and run through a million and five emotions we trust and know that Christ is the master plan and he doesn't break a sweat.

Severe Compromise

They say "it is better to have loved than to not love at all".
 I say its better to have severed ties than to compromise.
Compromise your joy, your worth.
 To be with a man who constantly demeans it.
fighting for you is a losing battle, cuz your only in it for yourself,
You played me out again, what else is new,
 youve been doing this since i met you,
 you implied that Im the fool and shes the default.
 So it seems she wins over me because I stand up for whats right,
 I call you out on whats wrong and I demand better from you.
but you dont want better to come out of you,
 because honesty, loyalty, trust and care dont fit in your plan to "just have fun".
truth is I dont fit in your strategy to "just live your life"
 there you are taking advantage of life, love and liesure.
 While I check to see if my already shattered heart is still beating.
 My foolish pride wants me to be a fighting fool
. Just to prove Im ridin for you.
But truth be revealed its never been a matter whether or not i was ridin for you
. the annual question has always been cn you be true?
 can you live up to the commitments you so freely lets slip from your lips?
only to later justify your dissapointing slips,
all the love thats been dissed and the positive growing experiences that have been missed.
 What is it that I say I see in you?
Cuz the titanium that seals me to you currently feels like an anchor
 weighing me down. all pain with no true gain.
Coming from this side of the field;
 I say it is better to have severed ties than to compromise